I have a problem with this when it comes to employment in life and when I should write on this blog. My thoughts could run a million miles a minute for a couple of seconds and then I get myself distracted by something on my phone to read. I’ve done so much reading for the past couple of years because of my uncertainty. I don’t know what to do with my life. I always hear, nobody really does. It’s reflected in so many narratives, stories, forums, articles, social media platforms, news, and other such places of writing. It’s a problem for me. It’s my loss of focus. It drabbles me onto not focusing but dabbles me onto one topic to the next. It could be from cybersecurity to business intelligence to medical healthcare to forensic psychology and such. Is it important for me to pick a speciality? My answer would be yes. It is important to pick one for the time being. I’ve had this problem of doing research first and then prolonging it for a significant amount of time that I forget where time has left me. Some people need structure and I realized that I am one of those that need such.
So what is it that is wrong? I would say a few things that contribute to my dawdling, procured distractions of social media, my living situation, my uncertain fear with no solid future success stories, and my mental health. Social media is easily accessible, Instagram and Facebook. The video sharing website, Youtube most certainly is one of the most distracting of the distractions. It’s like watching television. You could stay on it for more than 5 hours a day. With my living situation, I live with three other people in my household, my two parents and my aunt. They are their own individuals but one in particular is my dad who can be quite bicker-some and agitating. When I research on topics of what I should be doing or what I think I’ll be good at, my thoughts of uncertainty kicks in where I don’t know anyone who has went through this and successfully continued on with it. My mental health I would not have wondered was a big deal back then. When Selena Gomez or other such big celebrities of today talked about mental health, I did not zone into what was the big deal. I just did my normal everyday living until I met with mental health professionals and other patients that possibly…it is a big problem for me. How do you overcome? How do you excel?
Well one thing I know I am doing right is by writing it down. It’s important. As humans, it is important to socialize. If not able to socialize, writing it down to view your own thoughts would or could bring about revelations and solutions to what could possibly be best for your future benefits. Thank you for reading. I hope to not be afraid to write on here especially if I think I should be nitpicky on choosing it to be of one niche. By being an individual myself, it would bring this blog together. For now, let’s keep it as a place for me to alleviate my ever growing mind. Thank you.
Cherished Memoir 