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Rough World, Rough Rock, Tough Love

I do not doubt my strength, resilience, nor my compassion. I do feel though, quite some guilt. I settled back into a space where I forever told myself I would never put myself through. It’s been rough; the mental games. The word triggered is a word that is much more spoken in this uproar inContinue reading “Rough World, Rough Rock, Tough Love”

Be Accepted for Being the Unexpected

A re-post from my old blog. Written September 26, 2011 I remember when I took Arabic Literature: In Translation, I felt as if I was different with my answers in the class. The class was small and consisted of about 8-9 people, but when I spoke, my answers seemed quite bizarre or out of theContinue reading “Be Accepted for Being the Unexpected”

Now…

It begins again, at an empty canvas. I stare at it with a what next kind of thought?

I used to believeWe were burnin’ on the edge of somethin’ beautifulSomethin’ beautifulSelling a dreamSmoke and mirrors keep us waitin’ on a miracleOn a miracleSay, go through the darkest of daysHeaven’s a heartbreak awayNever let you go, never let me downOh, it’s been a hell of a rideDriving the edge of a knifeNever let youContinue reading

Want you more every dayWhile slipping on the words I wish you would sayI get that late night knock on my doorAnd I know exactly what you’re coming here forYou went out with your girlsTold a lie said you’re lonelyBut you know where I amAnd I know where you’re goingEvery night you’re sleeping in myContinue reading

A Segment of Heartbreak

Love Triangles

I never want to be in one. If a guy had a choice, I’d rather jump ship no matter. If there is conflicting feelings with a guy to another girl and me, I’d rather make it an easy option where, I’ll just jump out ship. I don’t ever want to be an option. I wasContinue reading “Love Triangles”

Short Letter to Pri

It’s been a couple weeks since you passed away. When I randomly stumble upon the videos I recorded of you, I still tear up. It’s like one day I was texting you and then the next day I am not able to… I feel very disheartened. We can’t spontaneously talk about the most randomest momentsContinue reading “Short Letter to Pri”

adieu; short, no end

It was the day I had to return to Chicago. It was my last day to return to Chicago…It was December 13, 2013. This was the day I returned to make an end..I think it was a day it snowed when I landed but I did not think too much of the too smallest ofContinue reading “adieu; short, no end”

That Promise

Long ago, he asked me, would I be able to live this life without him. I said I don’t know. But one promise I promised myself and to him was to be better than myself yesterday. I am to be able to stand on my own two feet, fight for what I strongly believe in,Continue reading “That Promise”